Ides of May

Close enough.  Jon Guy packed it April 16. Long time islander first came to these shores in 1978.  Didn’t know him but saw him around and knew who he was.  He was a central figure in the island community.  He was 66 which ain’t near old enough for a tour of this planet.  It is.  It’s sad.  Obit in “Island Tides” http://www.islandtides.com/ out of Pender Island by his wife/partner Priscilla Ewbank who has also been writing “Saturna Notes” in the paper for years.  Didn’t know they were connected.  Never met her or even know what she looks like but it must be terribly sad to lose your other half like that, before his time.  May the Lord bless her.  And him.  Jon had gone into a partnership with the Schaeffers on the lower store and pub by the ferry back around 2006 or 2007.  The Schaeffers died in that plane crash on take-off out of Saturna in November 2009.  They were our immediate neigbours to the west.  So no one in that partnership is around anymore.  John Giorno was right.  Life is a killer.  The planet stumbles on but the contestants come and go.  And it is.  It is.  A stranger’s sojourn.  Marcus Aurelius nailed it.

Jon Guy

Death is a strange thing.  It effects you.  I never met the man but I knew who he was.  I was thinking about him.  I was sitting in the rec centre with a lot of other people Saturday afternoon for the Orca Tour 2014, Saturna Island date, and I was still thinking about Jon Guy.  How can you just up and die like that?  Words are inadequate and you can’t do a thing about it.  I was sitting there listening to Richard Blagborne doing the introductions for the presentations by Erich Hoyt and Paul Spong and I was thinking, yes, this is a community.  I’ve always wondered about this concept of a “community” because it’s something I’d never really felt myself, never felt part of any community.  But here, without a doubt, was a community.  A community of people interested in Orcas and what those Orcas represent.  And interested in preserving what they represent.  You remember Erich Hoyt.  He wrote a standard work, “Orca. The Whale Called Killer.”

Erich Hoyt Whale Trail Saturna Poster copyThe island had taken a hit with Jon Guy’s passing.  I could feel the sense of loss at the main store, in whose operations he had played an integral role.  How could he just disappear like that?  I think people were still a little bewildered.  He was still working two weeks before he died.  But for the living life goes on.  I forget who said that.

We met an islander whose work we’d seen in the cafe gallery.  It’s always interesting to put a face to a name.  States bought me a linoprint by Karen Muntean and we went to pick it up at her place on East Point Road opposite Russell Beach.  We’d driven by the house a thousand times so it was interesting to be in the house and looking down at the road, the beach or “Banks” beyond, and the Strait of Georgia and the mainland beyond that.

Back at the place some serious weirdness was going on in the San Juans.  A tongue of rainbow was sticking out of Skipjack Island.  Our timing was perfect because the phenomena lasted about 30 seconds.

DSC_0374You can’t make this stuff up.  I forget who said that.  There’s that echo again.

We’ve made it to The Tyee Blogroll http://thetyee.ca/BCBlogs/ so I guess it’s time to ‘straighten up and fly right’.  So keep the cards and letters, cheques, comments and recommendations flowing, y’hear?  Thank you.

Friendship

March 31, 2014.  Strange, new, unfamiliar year (SNUY).  I call an old friend, culmination of a plan more than a year in the making.  I call him Sunday thinking there’ll be a better chance of reaching him and I’m right.  Here he is.  He’d been working on that really expensive bridge out there in Burnaby or Coquitlam or wherever it is for a really long time, but I knew that was over.  I remember the last time I’d talked to him calling him at eight o’clock on a Saturday night.  He was at work, which surprised me.  We had to hang up. Normally Clanbrassil will talk your ear off.  He seems to live on the phone.

“I gotta go, Steve.  I’m at work.”

“Well, why don’t you get to work then?  Why are you talking to me?”

I met Adrian Clanbrassil in the 20th century in a bizarre place called Wakeman Sound.  He was a hard working, hard playing veteran and I was “green”.  The business was timber extraction and the only way to get to it was by air.  It was a remote site.  I’d gotten into the business because I needed money and wanted to do something different.  Clanbrassil was here for some of the same reasons.  He’d spent several seasons in another company camp on the Nekite River north of here that was logged out now, which was why he was at Wakeman.  He was pulling rigging on a side I was assigned to one summer Saturday.

I learned the first day I met Clanbrassil that I was connected to him in an odd way.  We were both from town and most of these clowns in the logging show were from Vancouver Island.  When I found out he’d grown up in Point Grey I told him my girlfriend had too.  He asked me her name.  “I was their paperboy,” he said.  When he was a kid he’d delivered the paper to States’ parent’s house.  I definitely never thought I’d meet anyone who could say that in this place.

Adrian and I became friends and stayed friends long after our careers in the woods were over.  How often do you have the opportunity of making a new friend?  We had a lot in common.  We were both white, both male and both enjoyed a good time.  We didn’t see each other a lot but stayed in touch.  He used to call out of the blue, or I’d call him.  He did building technology at BCIT and made good money in construction.  I took a vow of poverty and started working in the book business.

Before hanging up that last time I asked him how his partner was.  I’d never met her but knew Anne and he had been together a long time, going back to when he went into rehab.  I was surprised and a little shocked to hear him say, “We’re not living together anymore.  We broke up.”  My cliché thought was,  “I hope he hasn’t started drinking again.”  I’d been thinking about it on and off ever since.  Was my friend all right?

I remembered when he quit drinking.  I’d called him and he was in Crescent Beach, living at a recovery house.  I  knew how difficult it must have been for him.  He always prided himself on his work ethic and was very solid at what he did, but there’d been a mystery developing the last few years.  His marriage had ended.  I knew he’d bought a small condo and walked away from it.  Then he left the country to work on a construction project in Taipei.  I didn’t know, but doing that might have been as much about avoiding debt collectors as any cold, hard desire to work in Taipei.  When he came back it was like he was on the lam.  He’d even importuned my mother-in-law and invited himself to stay in an upstairs bedroom of her house, a strange situation that lasted about a month and led to a bit of a falling out between us.  “Why, actually, are you here?”  I already knew the answer.  Adrian Clanbrassil’s life had run off the rails.

I think I didn’t want to hear my friend’s life was messed up again.  But you think like that and then you think, it’s your friend, right?  Does it matter what’s happened?  He’s your friend.  He’s an adult.  He’s a strong guy.  You were a team in the glory days and you want to know what’s become of your friend.  A friend doesn’t say “forget it” about a friend.

And here he is.  He sounds fine.  He sounds the same.  He says he’s at his girlfriend’s.  So he’s got a “girlfriend”.  That’s good.  He tells me he’s living in a trailer park near Boundary Bay.  Clanbrassil living in a trailer park.  Why does that not sound ridiculous?  There’s almost something right about it.  We don’t talk about the past.  I don’t ask him if he’s drinking.  It’s not my business.  This is a quick social call to verify we’re both still out here.  We’ve done it.  We’ve kept in touch, like old friends.  I can’t help him with his problems anymore than he can help me with mine.  Doesn’t matter.  Friendship’s not about problems.  Professionals deal with problems.  We’re just friends.  Let’s keep it that way.

 

'Nuthin but blue skies'

 

 

Spring Broke

That’s right.  Check your bank account.  You have a bank account, don’t you?  The kids’ll be taking a break and you’re broke.  You’ve been broke for some time now, haven’t you?  Like, if you’ve got two hundred dollars in the bank you’re feeling flush, right?  Feeling chipper?  Ready for Vegas?  Your account balance is $46.21.  You have no investments, no RSPs, no TFSAs.  You had to sell off all that to survive.  Doesn’t matter.  It’s bridge under the water.  Now it’s about the $46.21.  Poverty teaches many things.  The main lesson is it’s a lesson you didn’t need.

Being broke actually gives you a lot of power.  It’s not really great power, but still.  You have the power to say “no” to so much.  It’s the triumph of being broke.  You’ve made it.  You’re indifferent.  Let’s take a short break here to have a look at nature’s riches.

Team Crocus

Being broke means you’ve bought one pair of pants in the last five years.  You did well, really saved up.  You went without so that others could shine then finally you went out and bought those pants.  They cost you a dollar.  As for shoes, well, there’s been no shoes.  It’s a good thing you stocked up on shoes when you had the chance because even now, at this advanced date, some of those shoes are still wearable.  It’s close, but you can kind of fake along, right?  You go from strength to strength and it’s the power of the impoverished.  You’ve sacrificed everything for capital A Art and it isn’t until recently that you’ve realized the guy’s name’s not Art at all.  It’s Phil.  There’s been a error somewhere and you made it.  And Phil is not locatable.  Is that a word?  Everything’s a word here.  Locate?  Lo-cat?  Able?  Locate-a-cat?  ‘I should think that something must be terribly wrong somewhere.’

It’s five years now that you’ve been this broke.  Everything’s five years.  You used to buy anything you wanted.  Lots of pants and shoes, and shirts too as well as coats and jackets.  These days you’re still holding the line on shirts.  You haven’t bought one shirt in the last five years.  You’ve “borrowed” one jacket, meaning you wore it on a guestworker gig and neglected to return it. You liked it because it was black like you and carried no insignia of any kind and you knew, anyway, it was from Costco and cost about thirty-eight cents.  And anyway later the proprietor said it’s okay, keep it, you earned it, and she was right.  So you did.  You haven’t bought a coat, sweater or even a pair of shorts.  Okay you’ve bought underwear.  Let’s keep it real.  And you haven’t succeeded in stifling your ambition for books and beer.  You haven’t stopped reading and keep those famous words of Oscar Wilde close to you:  “I’m for beer and plenty of it.”  And you remember another one over at Ernest Hemingway:  “Beer is a food.”  He said it in “Green Hills of Africa”.  I wonder who the last person is that read “Green Hills of Africa”?  So you feel it’s all right.  And you support the economy of your back lane by leaving your empties out there.  Being broke doesn’t mean you’ve lost your passion for philanthropy.  It’s obvious you’re a generous soul.  Let’s take a short break here to have a look at nature’s riches.  There’s that echo again.

RoseObviously it’s wheels within wheels.  It’s poverty explained.  You can get a little burned around the edges and maybe the exposure hasn’t been all that great and there’s nothing but tofu in the house, but in the midst of death we’re in life.  There’s that too.  You can be cancelled financially, but you know what?  You open an account across the street.  Get over there.  You bring in your pennies and you’re helping your country too.  Get those pennies out of circulation.  Your patriotism is unquestioned.

You can tell when people have decent jobs.  They wear decent clothes.  But you’re still a lucky human being if you can see that you are.  And, who knows?  A dump truck full of cash could be right around the corner.  Alexander Pope was right.

Spring
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